Bedridden and not feeling well

I wasn't feeling very well over the long weekend. I got my period almost two weeks early. It seems like I am bleeding more and more now. It's very frustrating. This period was a bad one and has left me bedridden. I've had massive bleeding and cramping. It's been awful. Master Anakin was very helpful and supportive yesterday. I don't know what I would do without Him.

I have a lot of anxiety about the hysterectomy. I can understand why it needs to be done though. The growing fibroids are getting worse. It takes a lot out of me. It's affected my quality of life. It's hard to do much when I am bleeding so much and having awful cramps. I can't imagine what it's like to not have a period anymore and be dealing with this.

I am depressed right now. I miss having a normal life. I hate being bedridden and not being able to do all those things that I like to do for Master. I know that will probably not get easier when the hysterectomy is done. I will need His help a lot after that. I am just hoping that there is a better life after it's done. I won't have to worry about planning around my periods and dealing with this pain and pressure from the fibroids happening. It's awful. :( 

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala