A quiet weekend with Master

I had a pretty quiet weekend with Master Anakin. I wasn't feeling 100% so we didn't do very much. We had a movie night on Saturday night which was really nice. We watched Flight and Rocky Balboa. Flight was a really excellent movie!! I recommend it a lot. Anakin and I were both crying at the end of it. I was really impressed. It gave me a lot to think about. It was our 3rd time watching Rocky Balboa. I love the Rocky movies. They are very inspirational.

I really enjoy spending time with Master. We haven't been able to play in a while which is a bit frustrating to both of us. I've been dealing with health issues due to having fibroids. He's also afraid to put too many marks/bruises on me in case I get called in for surgery due to being on the cancellation list for it.

I haven't heard anything yet about the hysterectomy and that's been very frustrating. Living with the fibroids takes a lot out of me. I just want to be done the surgery and moving forward in my life. I am still very nervous and anxious over surgery but tired of living with the fibroids.

I haven't been feeling like blogging much lately. I do try to tweet and keep in touch with people but have lost some of my motivation for blogging. My force is still very strong with Master. We are both connected and close. He's been taking really good care of me. I feel so lucky to have Him. 

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Anxious slave

I have been feeling a lot of anxiety the last few weeks. I did feel better when we went on our camping trip but it came back once we got home. The last few months have been really stressful. It seems like one thing after another has happened. I am still trying to process the loss of my FIL who passed away in April. I've been dealing with many different health issues. I am waiting to hear about a surgery date for a hysterectomy. I'm on a cancellation list so that can happen at any time. I feel like this is looming over my head. It's a really terrible feeling. It's hard to plan for anything this summer in case I get called in for the surgery.

I am dealing with the symptoms of having growing fibroids. I try not to complain about it but it's made me feel uncomfortable and caused me to have discomfort on a regular basis. I have my period coming up again and that makes me feel depressed as I often don't leave the house much during that time of the month. Having fibroids really sucks! I've tried to get rid of these things but they just seem to keep growing! :(

I didn't expect for 2013 to be so stressful. I had no idea that so many different things would happen this year which would cause me to have anxiety. I am trying to cope with the anxiety in healthy ways. My Doctor gave me pills for it but I don't like to take them because I don't want to become addicted to them. I have done yoga but not in a while. I should probably start doing it again. I just hate having to do it alone.

I still try to go for daily walks but it's been pretty warm out so I don't walk as far. I wish there was a way to get rid of the anxiety when it gets really bad. I am trying to cope with anxiety but some days are much harder than others.

How do you deal with anxiety? Any tips on how to deal with it in a healthy way?

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Bedridden and not feeling well

I wasn't feeling very well over the long weekend. I got my period almost two weeks early. It seems like I am bleeding more and more now. It's very frustrating. This period was a bad one and has left me bedridden. I've had massive bleeding and cramping. It's been awful. Master Anakin was very helpful and supportive yesterday. I don't know what I would do without Him.

I have a lot of anxiety about the hysterectomy. I can understand why it needs to be done though. The growing fibroids are getting worse. It takes a lot out of me. It's affected my quality of life. It's hard to do much when I am bleeding so much and having awful cramps. I can't imagine what it's like to not have a period anymore and be dealing with this.

I am depressed right now. I miss having a normal life. I hate being bedridden and not being able to do all those things that I like to do for Master. I know that will probably not get easier when the hysterectomy is done. I will need His help a lot after that. I am just hoping that there is a better life after it's done. I won't have to worry about planning around my periods and dealing with this pain and pressure from the fibroids happening. It's awful. :( 

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Scared about hysterectomy

I thought that I would blog about some of my feelings regarding the upcoming hysterectomy. I'm scared and nervous about this. I honestly think this is one of the scariest things that I have ever dealt with in my life. This type of situation makes you really evaluate your life. I had to have a very difficult discussion last night with Master Anakin. It was about my final wishes should something happen to me during this surgery.

It was recommended by HysterSisters as well as other people to have that important discussion. Master didn't really want to talk about it but did discuss this with me. It was one of the most difficult talks that I've ever had with Him. I could tell that He's scared and nervous like I am. I am sitting here in tears as I write this blog post. This is a very hard to think about. I was up last night thinking about it.

I am really glad that I am not fighting with anyone right now going into this surgery. I want to make sure that my feelings for people are said. I really wish that I had done up a will. I've been putting it off because it's something that no one wants to think about. I want to make it through surgery and be ok. I want to be able to pee ok and not have any bladder damage or complications. A lot of people have talked about their health issues improving after a hysterectomy. I just want to feel better.

The last year has been very challenging for me and changed me in so many ways. I have a much deeper appreciation for my friends and family. I am grateful to be alive. It's scary to think about what would happen if I don't make it through surgery and the people that I would leave behind, especially Master and my kids. :/  This whole thing is a very scary experience.

Thank you for everyone who has given me support and friendship with what I am going through. I truly appreciate it. It helps to know that there have been many others who have had hysterectomies and made it through surgery ok with no complications.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Movie date night with Master

It was really nice to have a distraction yesterday. Master Anakin and I had a date night. He took me to see Man of Steel! Great movie! It was much better than I expected. It was really nice to get my mind off the upcoming surgery. We came home and opened some wine. We played a little bit and had sex. I had a really big orgasm. We were not able to play very hard due to the marks. I am on a cancellation list for the surgery so I don't want to have many marks in case it happens right away. He did spank me with His hand and a little bit with the belt. It was nice to have a red bum! :) I enjoyed my date night with Master.

I am spending the day getting ready for the surgery. I was told that things can happen very quickly if a cancellation happens. So I want to be ready. I am cleaning the house and also getting my hospital bag ready. I'm panicky and scared but also feel a sense of acceptance over the hysterectomy. I am having so many different health issues going on because of the rapidly growing fibroids. I know that this was the best decision and that has given me some peace. I just hope that I can get in sooner than later for the surgery. I want to be recovering and not dealing with these awful fibroids anymore.

I hope everyone is having a good weekend!

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Proceeding with the hysterectomy

I went to see the Specialist today regarding the hysterectomy. I got a lot of answers regarding the surgery. I didn't realize how bad the situation was until today. She wanted to do an internal exam and then did a biopsy on me. There is a small risk of cancer with having fast growing fibroids. She wanted to be sure. The biopsy hurt 10 X worse than a pap smear. She had to take a tube and put it through my cervix to get it into my uterus and scrap the cells. The pain was extreme!! I am a masochist but that was unbearable. I am now bleeding from it. Not fun! :(

She saw the ultrasound results and did an internal to check the size/shape of the fibroids. She had a pretty serious look on her face. She told me that she recommends that I get a hysterectomy. She doesn't always recommend it but she does in my case. The fibroids are quickly growing. My largest which was 10 cm is now 14 cm. There is a really nasty one right on my bladder. I thought that peeing all the time was just a part of aging. She explains that one makes the surgery more complicated.

She said there is a risk of damage to the bladder/urethra. She plans to keep me in the hospital until I can pee ok. She plans to take the uterus, tubes and cervix. She wants to keep my ovaries although they may have to be removed if she finds a problem with them during the surgery. She showed me a diagram of how big the largest fibroids are. Wow!! I couldn't believe it! It made my head spin! No wonder I'm having a lot of health issues. I realized there was no other options regarding this surgery. This is not a good situation at all. :(

She told me that the surgery is "bloody" and there is usually major blood loss. I had to sign a consent for a blood transfusion. She said the recovery will depend on what type of surgery (I am getting laproscopic but might need to be cut open too and have abdominal) and how fast I bounce back from this and what is removed. It's a lot to think about. I haven't needed any type of surgery since my c-section. This is a different type of surgery. It's all very scary. I came home and had a full blown panic attack over this. :/

I've been put on a waiting list to get this done ASAP. I was told to be ready for this at any time. They will phone me if there are any cancellations. 

This is a life changing event. I just hope that everything will be ok. It's all very scary and upsetting. My force is not feeling very strong.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Nervous about upcoming hysterectomy

I haven't been feeling up to blogging much lately. I've been feeling a bit depressed lately. 2013 hasn't turned out to be a great year. It seems to be one thing after another. I spent months going back and forth to the hospital with my FIL. He passed away in April. I had a breast cancer scare after getting a mammogram done. I've been dealing with lots of health issues this year despite trying to get healthy.

A lot of my health issues started in December. I thought that getting healthy would help them. I started doing yoga. I cleaned up my diet. I have lost 30 pounds so far. It didn't seem to help my periods though. They just seemed to get worse. One of my periods lasted 2 weeks and was the period from hell. I knew something was wrong and went to see the Doctor. He noticed my uterus was enlarged and sent me for an ultrasound.

My uterus is filled with fibroids. One of the largest is 10 cm. The fibroids have been making my life miserable. I even wound up in the ER over it. I was put on a waiting list to see the specialist. It's taken two months to finally see one. The appointment is tomorrow. It's been recommended that I have a hysterectomy. I have gone back and forth over this surgery. I've agonized about whether I should get it done or not. It's been one of the toughest decisions to make in my life.

Getting a hysterectomy is major surgery. I wanted to make sure that I was making the right decision about it. Master Anakin and I had a very big talk last night. I have decided to get the hysterectomy done. I will find out more information tomorrow about it. I'm going to need a lot of help and support to get through the recovery time.

One of the best websites that I joined was HysterSisters.  I've spent hours on there reading about it. I joined it the other day. I've been wanting to talk to others who have gone through it. I know that everyone has a different experience with it but it helps to know that I'm not alone.

My force hasn't felt very strong lately. I'm really glad to have Master in my life though. He's been my strong force. I don't know what I would do without Him.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

A pretty good weekend

I had a pretty good weekend with Master Anakin. We were able to have a quickie on Friday night. He also gave me a big orgasm right before bed. It was nice to connect. We weren't able to play though. I really miss getting spanked! :P 

The rest of the weekend was pretty good too. Father's day was a bit sad though. It was Anakin's first Father's day without His Dad. It was strange to go for a picnic in the park without him. We are in the same boat now. We both don't have a Dad to celebrate it with.

I am feeling very nervous and anxious today. I have an appointment on Thursday with the Gync about getting a hysterectomy done. This is a very major surgery and a lot to think about. I have been dealing with fibroids. One of the fibroids is quite large and causing me a lot of problems. I've been trying to be healthy this year but struggled with some issues like the fibroids. I feel very torn. I would like to be rid of all the problems with my fibroids but the surgery is scary. I'm worried about the recovery time and possible complications from that surgery. The whole thing is causing me a lot of anxiety.

I miss Master a lot today. Can't wait to cuddle up with Him tonight.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Good news!

I got some really good news today! I went to the Doctor after getting a second mammogram and breast ultrasound done. Master Anakin took the day off work today to go with me to the appointment. I've been a really big emotional mess over this. I've lost weight. I have barely slept. I could barely function.  I was shaking when the Doctor came into the room. He told us "No cancer. Everything's fine".  I immediately started crying.

He was surprised I was crying because it was good news. My tears were because I was so relieved though. All that stress and build up this last week. I didn't know what he was going to tell me. I go back in November (six months) for a standard follow-up for it. I feel like a big black cloud has been lifted. I have a much better appreciation for life after this experience. I have never been so glad to be alive and ok.

He said there is a lesion on my left breast. Most likely some kind of scar tissue. He reassured me though there is nothing to worry about. At least there wasn't a lump. I can relax and finally get some sleep now. 

Thank you to all those friends who messaged and supported me this last week. It was a very scary time.  I have never been so worried and scared in my whole life. You really helped me through a dark time. I am so extremely grateful for my friends in my life! Thank you!

Thank you also to Master Anakin. I know He was very worried about me. He's been extremely supportive and wonderful. I'm so glad to be married to such a wonderful Man. 

My force is feeling strong!!

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

The Good - This weekend was a mixture of emotions for me. The good part of it was seeing my teen daughter have her prom night. She looked beautiful in her prom dress. Her boyfriend surprised her by taking her to prom in a helicopter! Talk about making an entrance! I was so happy for the teen. It was nice to celebrate something positive. I can't believe she is graduating from high school! The years have really flown by fast.

The Bad - I was extremely stressed out about getting a call back on my mammogram. I had a second mammogram done on Friday. I spent a lot of time over the weekend feeling very worried and anxious. I spent almost 2 hours on Saturday night trying to find a lump in my left breast.

I couldn't feel anything and either could Anakin. My Doctor also didn't feel anything when I had a breast exam during my recent physical exam. It's been agonizing waiting to find out what's going on. I have a breast ultrasound tomorrow on my left breast. I see the Doctor on Thursday to discuss the results. I may need a biopsy if the breast ultrasound doesn't go very well. It's hard to wait for answers. I know people tell me not to worry but how can you not?  It's a very big worry. Having breast cancer would change my life. I just hope it turns out ok. I've been extremely stressed out about it.

and the Ugly - Cancer is such an ugly disease. I feel like it's touched my life in so many ways. I've watched it take away people that I love. I've seen people (like one of my best friends) struggle with it in a very big way. She had stage 3 breast cancer. Had 2 years of chemo and radiation as well as losing her breasts. Cancer sucks! It is a horrible feeling when you wonder if you have it. I've tried to be healthy but sometimes that isn't enough. Cancer can happen to anyone. It's very scary. :(

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

The dreaded call back on a Mammogram

The last 48 hours have been some of the most stressful that I've ever had. On Thursday I got the call that women dread. I had my first mammogram done the week before. They wanted to do more diagnostic testing. The woman didn't tell me much on the phone but wanted to get me in right away. That set off some of the worst panic and anxiety that I've ever had.

One of my closest friends is a breast cancer survivor. She has gone through hell with it. She was one of the first people that I phoned to tell the news. She's been really reassuring. She even came with me to my appointment yesterday for a second mammogram. 

I went for the second Mammogram after a really awful night. I hardly slept. I couldn't eat breakfast. I thought I was going to puke. The lady was very friendly. She told me they only wanted to examine my left breast near the nipple. She told me it's very common to get called back for more tests after a first mammogram and not to worry. That's very hard though. Obviously you are going to worry. I was told to wait in the waiting room to see if I needed anymore testing like an ultrasound. I was really hoping she would come and tell me it was ok. She handed me a slip of paper though and told me to come back for an ultrasound.

I've been spending a lot of time researching and reading about it. The ultrasound will show a lot more and hopefully it won't need a biopsy. At least the stats are in my favor. There is usually a very low risk of it turning out to be cancer. They told me that 90% of calls back are fine. You can't help but think of the 10% who do have cancer though. My friend was one of those people. It's really hard to not think about it or worry. I will admit that this has really consumed me. I can't think about anything else.

Tomorrow is the teen's prom/grad. I am going to try very hard to focus on her big day and celebrate something positive. It's just very difficult with this happening right now. I wish that I had some answers. Thank you for everyone who has messaged me and be there through this. I don't feel so alone with going through this experience. I will keep everyone updated.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

My first mammogram

I went for my first mammogram today. You can refer yourself for one if you are over 40 years old. I got it done at the hospital. My friend, DL came with me. It helped to go through it with another woman. DL has had breast cancer too. So she was very supportive and helpful to talk to. I was very nervous about it. I was supposed to get one done earlier in the year but I chickened out. I was dealing with my FIL and couldn't deal with it at the time. It was very quick. I found it easier than going through a pap smear. My appointment only took about 10 minutes and it was done!

I'm trying to stick to my healthy new years resolutions. I am currently 156 pounds. I still do yoga. I'm walking every day. I'm dealing with my health issues. I am seeing the specialist next month about a hysterectomy. It's a very big surgery and a lot to think about. I'm trying to cure some of my health issues through a really good diet and exercise plan. My fibroids are causing me a lot of troubles. I even had some mid cycle bleeding this month. It's awful. At least I'm getting some help now. It took me a long time to reach out for help.

I'm glad that I had my mammogram done. It can save lives. My friend is a great example of that. She's had breast cancer. It was detected through a mammogram. So I know that it's important. It's hard to do these types of tests but important. I want to be around for a long time. I am starting to really understand about how important it is to be healthy. I want to grow old with Master Anakin. I want us to live a long life. I'm glad we are making important life changes. Master has also lost weight. We have been working on it together. We are a strong couple. Our force is strong.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Hanging in there

I'm hanging in there. It's been a really rough time lately. I'm still dealing with losing my FIL. I'm dealing with some health issues too. I spent the day in the ER yesterday. I was in pretty bad shape. I was in a lot of pain. Having fibroids is awful. :(  I am on a waiting list to see the specialist and get a hysterectomy. I haven't felt very good this week. I haven't been online very much.

Master has been very supportive and amazing! I'm so lucky to have Master Anakin. I don't know what I would do without Him. I have been missing Him a lot. He is off work tomorrow though! So it's a long weekend coming up! I can't wait to spend some time with Him. Hopefully we can play on the darkside!  :P

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Our force is strong!

Anakin and I have been together for almost 17 years. That's a very long time. We've seen lots of couples break up and not make it.  Master Anakin and I have been through a lot. We've had some really hard struggles in our relationship. The last few weeks have been stressful. There was lots to do for my FIL's memorial. It's been a very difficult month for us. It's still hard to believe that my FIL (father-in-law) is really gone. :(  We had a very nice memorial for him. Anakin spent a long time working on the memorial video for that. My FIL would have been very proud. We are going to miss him a lot.

 I've had some health issues too. I went for an ultrasound last week. It showed that I have some fibroids. One of them is quite large. It's caused me to have heavy periods and that makes me very anemic. My last period lasted for 2 weeks!! I got my period on the weekend and it has taken a lot out of me. I feel very fatigued and drained from it. Fibroids are making my life hell!

It's been recommended that I have a hysterectomy. That's a very scary thought. Anakin assured me that He would be there for me. I wouldn't have to go through it alone. Our force is strong! I feel like we can get through anything together.

I really miss playing on the darkside with Master. It's been a while since we really played hard. I would love to have that kind of escape and leave our worries behind for a while. I could really use a hard spanking! :P

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Back to normal

Things are back to normal again today. The kids are finally back to school after a two week Spring Break. Anakin is back to work after a 4 day long weekend for Easter. We had a pretty nice Easter. We managed to find some time for naughty fun on the darkside. We also were able to get away for a really nice afternoon in Burnaby on Saturday. It was nice to get away from it all for a while.

Easter was also a bit of a sad holiday for us too. We visited my FIL (Father-in-Law) in the hospital for Easter. That situation has been really stressful. I find the visits very upsetting and heartbreaking. I feel guilty when I don't visit though. It's hard to say how long that situation is going to go on for. He's still hanging on although I notice a lot of deterioration each week. Cancer sucks!

I've had some heath issues going on as well. I saw my Doctor and have a whole bunch of tests to get done. I've got a shoulder injury but plan to do yoga today. I haven't been able to do it in a few days and really miss it. It helps to center me and also with stress release. I got permission to use the Hitachi today too! That also helps a lot with stress release. :P

I did weigh-in yesterday. I was really nervous about stepping on the scale. I was down another 3 pounds though. I am now down to 157 pounds!! Someone asked me yesterday about a new goal weight. I'm not sure. I never expected to get down to this weight. I've reached two of my goal weights since the New Year started. It's been 3 months since I started my new healthy journey with Master. I'm really proud of our success and how far we have both come.  It hasn't been easy.

I am hoping to get back to blogging more often. I've missed it. :)

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

A stressful weekend

It's been a pretty stressful weekend. I could really use a vacation or even a break from life. I was hoping that we might get a date night on Friday but it never happened. I was exhausted and had been feeling depressed all day. Master Anakin bought me some wine but that seemed to make me more sleepy. We did have some really great sex before bed. I even had a big g-spot orgasm. He spanked me with His hand and then sent me to bed.

I woke up to one of the worst periods ever!!! My period has been really late and it finally started!! It's been horrible! The Doctor suspects that I have fibroids which are causing my heavy periods. I was even offered the chance to have a hysterectomy. That seems very scary to me though. I've heard some horror stories about hysterectomies and how they can affect your hormones. It's hard though. I feel awful today. Maybe it's not such a bad idea after all. The heavy periods are causing me to get anemic as well. Anakin mentioned that my face looked pale. I also get really tired too.

My FIL isn't doing very well. It's turned into a serious situation. He caught a cold while at the hospital. We noticed it the other day. He reassured us that he would talk to the nurse about it. He didn't though. It looked like the cold had gone into his chest. I'm very certain that it's pneumonia. It can be common to get that while in the hospital. He's got cancer and a very low immune system. We called the nurse to come look at him. She seemed surprised by how bad it was. :/  His blood pressure was low. His heart was racing. He really didn't look very well.

I felt very uneasy leaving the hospital. I just had a really bad feeling about it. Anakin phoned the hospital and talked to several people about it. The whole situation really bothered me last night. I could barely function. I had to take a sleeping pill to get some sleep. I kept expecting the phone to ring from the hospital. We are going back up there today to check on him. I really hope he's going to be ok. I'm very worried. Cancer sucks!

We don't have a lot of help and support with this situation either. I'm kind of pissed off at a few family members. This is a very serious situation. It's hard to deal with. I have felt very depressed about it. It is very difficult to see a loved one with cancer that is struggling to breathe. :(  I love my FIL like my Dad. He's been really good to me and the family. It's going to be very hard when the day comes that we lose him.

I'm not sure how much I'll be blogging or online in the next few weeks. There is also some other family drama going on. I've had some challenges with the teen too. I'm just feeling very tired of it all. I want to run away and escape. I'd really love some time on the darkside with Master right now..

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Life changes

There have been a lot of life changes this year. So much is changing and there is lots to adjust to. We thought that my FIL was getting released from the hospital but he wasn't. It's been a very difficult situation. It's been a stressful time for our whole family.

The hospital is a very depressing place to visit. It brings back some really bad memories too. The hospice is right beside it which is where Anakin's mom passed away. It's not a very happy place to visit. My FIL looked very sad and quiet yesterday. I wish that we could do more for him. Cancer sucks!

My FIL is going to need a lot of help and support. My SIL wants to put him into a senior's home. My FIL wants to go back home though. This has caused a lot of family drama lately. It's also brought up some really big talks. Anakin asked me about his Dad moving in with us. We would get a big house and share it with his Dad and take care of him. This is obviously a very big decision!! It would change our lives in many different ways. I'm not sure what is going to happen.

There is a lot of family drama going on with my family too lately. I've really needed a break. Master and I got the chance to play and connect on Friday. He stayed home from work and we spent some time together on the darkside. It's what we both needed. It felt great to go into subspace for a while and forget our stress and family drama.

There is some really big stuff going on in our family. The teen is graduating in a few months and still trying to figure out her future. I'm really worried about her. I've had some really serious health issues going on. That's also stressed me out. Life is moving so quickly. It's hard to accept all the changes that are happening in my life. It's even strange to me that my son is turning 12 years old next month! He's about to be a teenager! The years go by so quickly. Hold onto those little moments while you can. I feel like I have a much deeper appreciation for life now that I'm 40 years old.

I've done a lot of changing lately. I don't even see the same person in the mirror anymore. I've lost 14 pounds and my body shape has even changed. Anakin's been changing a lot too. I am so proud of us for changing our lives and getting healthy. We have grown closer and fallen in love with each other all over again! I truly love my Husband and Master. He is my strong force. I know that we will get through whatever challenges are ahead for us. We are a strong couple. I love Anakin so very much. I know that I can get through anything with Him by my side.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

TGIF!! It's finally Friday!

TGIF! It's finally Friday! yah! It's been a pretty long week. I'm looking forward to some time with Master Anakin. I'm hoping we can find some alone time too! I'd really love to play on the darkside with Him! :) 

I am back from my morning walk. I'm about to do yoga with my workout buddy. I'm trying to stay on a healthy track even though I have some health issues. I saw the Doctor the other day. I'm getting some tests run. I wish that it didn't take me so long to get healthy. I'm 40 now and finally on the right track but it took me a while. It's been very challenging to make new healthy changes. I know that I need to though. My health isn't the greatest and I want to be around for a long time.

I'm really glad that I'm making healthy new changes with Anakin by my side. He's been a really great motivator and personal trainer! Thank You, Master. You are my strong force! 

I hope you have a good weekend!

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Our force is strong!

It's been a challenging new year so far. There is some serious health issues going on with my FIL. I've also faced some of my own health issues too. I got really sick with the flu during the holidays. I have tried to become healthier and make some new positive changes in my life. So has Master Anakin. We both decided to get healthier for the new year. We are both in our 40's and need to start thinking about the future. We want to be able to grow old together. That means taking care of ourselves.

We've both been going for walks daily. Anakin doesn't drink soda (coke/pepsi) anymore. His blood pressure is a lot better. We've both been losing weight and starting to get into shape! I'm so proud of both of us! We have been able to maintain our healthy lifestyle even with a lot of stress going on.

I'm even into yoga now! I just finished my yoga workout a few minutes ago. :)  It's really changed my life. I feel like I have become a much happier and better person. Anakin has even noticed a real difference in me lately. I'm less depressed and had more energy. I've even been able to get more housework done. My back is even feeling better! I got my period today but haven't had much PMS either. It's helped me in so many ways to clean up my health and to make some changes.

I was cuddling up with Master last night and feeling so close to Him. He mentioned that He wants to get away with me for a night. He'd like to take me to Whistler or Harrison Hot Springs for Valentine's day! I'd really love that! It would be so nice to get away with Him and escape for a night of romance and great play on the darkside! :)

Our force is strong.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Trying yoga for the first time

I have wanted to try yoga for years but was a bit worried about it. I was diagnosed with arthritis in 2001 and it's progressively gotten worse through the years. I am in daily chronic pain. I try not to complain about it too much but it's become a part of my life. I decided to try to change my life and get my back and spine into better shape. I saw a program on TV about people who have arthritis and have done yoga. Many of them said they were able to live a pain free life because of it.

I asked a friend of mine on Facebook for some advice on it. She sent me the link for Melissa West (@drmelissa) yoga videos. My friend even offered to join me for yoga. We live miles apart but she said to PM her and we would do the yoga together. I put on the yoga video for people with arthritis. I was able to stretch my muscles out and felt really relaxed afterwords. I even noticed that this morning my back isn't in as much pain! I am really excited about it! I am planning to do my second yoga workout this morning. I'm going to make this a part of my daily routine. :)

I was also able to cross something else off my bucket list! Yah!

#170 -Try Yoga

I am really happy to be making some new lifestyle changes in my life. Master Anakin and even our kids are trying to also. The teen even offered to join me to do yoga sometime. It's great for our whole family to get healthy. I've been thinking about joining a gym but I didn't want to rush into that. Many people join one because of the new year and they quit a few weeks or months later. I am walking daily and now have included yoga in it too as well as a healthy diet. I'm happy to do it at home for now. :)

It's been two weeks since I started on my new healthy journey but I can already feel many benefits from it. I am so proud of myself. Master Anakin has been a really great support with this too. I am really glad that we are doing this together. I believe this will make us an even stronger couple. I am really excited to see what the future has in store for us! :)

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala