Our force is strong!

Anakin and I have been together for almost 17 years. That's a very long time. We've seen lots of couples break up and not make it.  Master Anakin and I have been through a lot. We've had some really hard struggles in our relationship. The last few weeks have been stressful. There was lots to do for my FIL's memorial. It's been a very difficult month for us. It's still hard to believe that my FIL (father-in-law) is really gone. :(  We had a very nice memorial for him. Anakin spent a long time working on the memorial video for that. My FIL would have been very proud. We are going to miss him a lot.

 I've had some health issues too. I went for an ultrasound last week. It showed that I have some fibroids. One of them is quite large. It's caused me to have heavy periods and that makes me very anemic. My last period lasted for 2 weeks!! I got my period on the weekend and it has taken a lot out of me. I feel very fatigued and drained from it. Fibroids are making my life hell!

It's been recommended that I have a hysterectomy. That's a very scary thought. Anakin assured me that He would be there for me. I wouldn't have to go through it alone. Our force is strong! I feel like we can get through anything together.

I really miss playing on the darkside with Master. It's been a while since we really played hard. I would love to have that kind of escape and leave our worries behind for a while. I could really use a hard spanking! :P

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala