One of my closest friends is a breast cancer survivor. She has gone through hell with it. She was one of the first people that I phoned to tell the news. She's been really reassuring. She even came with me to my appointment yesterday for a second mammogram.
I went for the second Mammogram after a really awful night. I hardly slept. I couldn't eat breakfast. I thought I was going to puke. The lady was very friendly. She told me they only wanted to examine my left breast near the nipple. She told me it's very common to get called back for more tests after a first mammogram and not to worry. That's very hard though. Obviously you are going to worry. I was told to wait in the waiting room to see if I needed anymore testing like an ultrasound. I was really hoping she would come and tell me it was ok. She handed me a slip of paper though and told me to come back for an ultrasound.
I've been spending a lot of time researching and reading about it. The ultrasound will show a lot more and hopefully it won't need a biopsy. At least the stats are in my favor. There is usually a very low risk of it turning out to be cancer. They told me that 90% of calls back are fine. You can't help but think of the 10% who do have cancer though. My friend was one of those people. It's really hard to not think about it or worry. I will admit that this has really consumed me. I can't think about anything else.
Tomorrow is the teen's prom/grad. I am going to try very hard to focus on her big day and celebrate something positive. It's just very difficult with this happening right now. I wish that I had some answers. Thank you for everyone who has messaged me and be there through this. I don't feel so alone with going through this experience. I will keep everyone updated.
May the force be with you all!!
~padme amidala
