Sad news about my FIL

It's been a really difficult few months since my FIL (Father-in-law) went into the hospital back in January. We knew it was coming but was still a shock to get the phone call last night. We got the call just before 10 pm that he didn't have much time left. We raced to the hospital and got there shortly after he passed away. Anakin and I and both of our kids said our final goodbyes. I spent about 10 minutes alone with my FIL. It was a very surreal moment for me and extremely difficult.

I told him how much I loved him and thanked him for being so good to me and my family. It was one of the most difficult moments of my life. We stayed for about 2 hours and left the hospital just after midnight. It was a very strange feeling to know that we were leaving the hospital and not coming back again. It's become such a big part of our lives the last few months. Cancer sucks. I am glad he is not in anymore pain but it's a very difficult process to lose someone you love so much.

My FIL was like a Dad to me. He helped me to raise my kids. He was a class act and very good man. Some deaths really hit you harder than other ones. I almost don't have the words to describe how I feel right now. I am crying as I type this blog post. My heart feels very sad.

We have a meeting at the funeral home this afternoon. There is lots to do for the memorial. I am not sure how much I will be online for the next few days or weeks. This is a very difficult time for our whole family.

May the force be with my FIL...I am so grateful for each and every day that I got to spend with him over the last 20 years. He will truly be missed...

~padme amidala