Hysterectomy. The Musical

I have been preparing for my upcoming Hysterectomy next month. I've been on Hystersisters almost every day reading. I've also been reading a book about it that I got from Chapters. I've been asking lots of questions to women who have had the surgery done before. The surgery is on my mind all day! It's been a really rough few days. I have been having a brutal period. A reminder for me on why I'm having this surgery done. It was not an easy decision to make. Months of agonizing and researching about the surgery. Wondering if there might be other alternatives. I know there is no turning back now though. I need the surgery. I can't live like this anymore. It's severely affected my quality of life. In a few weeks I will be saying goodbye to my uterus.

I read something on another site this morning which made me smile. I wanted to share. It's about Hysterectomy. It's called Hysterectomy. The Musical. 

"Bye bye uterus. Bye bye tumors.
No more babies.
I’m so happy I’m gonna cry.
Bye bye female organ bye bye.
Bye bye aches and pains.
Bye bye sleepless nights.
Hello empty nest. I’ll kiss my womb goodbye.
I’m through with throwing up.
I’m through with cramps.
No more reading pain medication ads.
But there’s a reason I think it’s so cool, because now I don’t have to be in birth control school.
Bye bye uterus. Bye bye tumors.
I’m so happy I’m gonna cry."

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

A quiet weekend with Master

I had a pretty quiet weekend with Master Anakin. I wasn't feeling 100% so we didn't do very much. We had a movie night on Saturday night which was really nice. We watched Flight and Rocky Balboa. Flight was a really excellent movie!! I recommend it a lot. Anakin and I were both crying at the end of it. I was really impressed. It gave me a lot to think about. It was our 3rd time watching Rocky Balboa. I love the Rocky movies. They are very inspirational.

I really enjoy spending time with Master. We haven't been able to play in a while which is a bit frustrating to both of us. I've been dealing with health issues due to having fibroids. He's also afraid to put too many marks/bruises on me in case I get called in for surgery due to being on the cancellation list for it.

I haven't heard anything yet about the hysterectomy and that's been very frustrating. Living with the fibroids takes a lot out of me. I just want to be done the surgery and moving forward in my life. I am still very nervous and anxious over surgery but tired of living with the fibroids.

I haven't been feeling like blogging much lately. I do try to tweet and keep in touch with people but have lost some of my motivation for blogging. My force is still very strong with Master. We are both connected and close. He's been taking really good care of me. I feel so lucky to have Him. 

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

My first mammogram

I went for my first mammogram today. You can refer yourself for one if you are over 40 years old. I got it done at the hospital. My friend, DL came with me. It helped to go through it with another woman. DL has had breast cancer too. So she was very supportive and helpful to talk to. I was very nervous about it. I was supposed to get one done earlier in the year but I chickened out. I was dealing with my FIL and couldn't deal with it at the time. It was very quick. I found it easier than going through a pap smear. My appointment only took about 10 minutes and it was done!

I'm trying to stick to my healthy new years resolutions. I am currently 156 pounds. I still do yoga. I'm walking every day. I'm dealing with my health issues. I am seeing the specialist next month about a hysterectomy. It's a very big surgery and a lot to think about. I'm trying to cure some of my health issues through a really good diet and exercise plan. My fibroids are causing me a lot of troubles. I even had some mid cycle bleeding this month. It's awful. At least I'm getting some help now. It took me a long time to reach out for help.

I'm glad that I had my mammogram done. It can save lives. My friend is a great example of that. She's had breast cancer. It was detected through a mammogram. So I know that it's important. It's hard to do these types of tests but important. I want to be around for a long time. I am starting to really understand about how important it is to be healthy. I want to grow old with Master Anakin. I want us to live a long life. I'm glad we are making important life changes. Master has also lost weight. We have been working on it together. We are a strong couple. Our force is strong.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala