Happy 9 year blogoversary to JTTDS!

It's hard to believe it's been 9 years since we started Journey to the Darkside!! It's been quite a journey! We have blogged about everything from sex, kink, spankings, family, Star Wars, poly, bdsm, health, life and even death. We have been able to stick it out and continue blogging even though many other bloggers stopped.

I may not blog as much as I used to but I still try to keep up with JTTDS as much as I can. It can be challenging with all the social media now to find the time to blog. Blogging has helped me in so many ways. I've found some friends through it. I've been able to sort through my emotions and feelings.

It's also brought my Master and I closer together. Some of the best talks that I've had with Master Anakin were inspired by some of my blog posts that I've written. Blogging has become a big part of my life. There have been a few moments that I thought about stopping but then something always brought me back to it again. JTTDS has become a part of my life. I am very happy to be celebrating 9 years of being a blogger! It's been a really amazing journey for us! Thank you for joining us on our journey...O/our Journey to the Darkside! :)

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

A quiet weekend with Master

I had a pretty quiet weekend with Master Anakin. I wasn't feeling 100% so we didn't do very much. We had a movie night on Saturday night which was really nice. We watched Flight and Rocky Balboa. Flight was a really excellent movie!! I recommend it a lot. Anakin and I were both crying at the end of it. I was really impressed. It gave me a lot to think about. It was our 3rd time watching Rocky Balboa. I love the Rocky movies. They are very inspirational.

I really enjoy spending time with Master. We haven't been able to play in a while which is a bit frustrating to both of us. I've been dealing with health issues due to having fibroids. He's also afraid to put too many marks/bruises on me in case I get called in for surgery due to being on the cancellation list for it.

I haven't heard anything yet about the hysterectomy and that's been very frustrating. Living with the fibroids takes a lot out of me. I just want to be done the surgery and moving forward in my life. I am still very nervous and anxious over surgery but tired of living with the fibroids.

I haven't been feeling like blogging much lately. I do try to tweet and keep in touch with people but have lost some of my motivation for blogging. My force is still very strong with Master. We are both connected and close. He's been taking really good care of me. I feel so lucky to have Him. 

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

A very busy slave

I've been a very busy slave the last few days. We have been packing up my FIL's belongings and moving furniture from his place. Yesterday was our "moving day" and an extremely busy day. We spent the majority of the day moving stuff and going to appointments. We were able to have a date night and managed to squeeze in some play time and really amazing sex! It was nice to escape to the darkside for a while. I think we both really needed it. It's been a very stressful week since my FIL passed away last Sunday.

I got a hand and belt spanking last night. He used His belt on my ass again this morning. My bum is nicely sore. It's a nice reminder of our time together. I'm hoping to be back to blogging again soon. I haven't been able to be online very much. There is so much to get done before the memorial and also with Estate stuff.  The teen is also graduating next month. There are lots of life changes happening right now. It's been a very hard process and lots of changes happening.  My force feels strong through it all. Master and I are connected and strong.  I know we can get through any challenges that we face.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Date night tonight!

I thought I would write a quick update on our blog. I have kind of missed blogging lately. It has been a very difficult and overwhelming time for Anakin and I.  Anakin had last week off work and we were both dealing with a lot of serious issues.  There was a big family meeting about my FIL who is dealing with a lot of serious health issues.  He's in very bad health and there have been many worries about him.

We have been going back and forth to the hospital almost daily to visit him. We have both felt emotionally drained over it all. Our kids have also been home on Spring Break this week. They are off school next week too. So we divide our time between our kids and trying to have a normal type of life in the midst of visiting my FIL who is not doing very well. We take it day by day with it all.

We have not had very much fun lately. It's been over 2 weeks since we last played. I haven't been spanked. There hasn't even been much of a sex life lately. It's been really hard to get into the mood for that.  We have been able to get a date night tonight. We are both hoping to go to the movies to take a break and get our minds off things for a while.

I'm really hoping we can play on the darkside. I've been longing for some rough play to escape from all the stress that has been happening lately. I could really use a hard spanking right now!

I'm not sure how much I'll be blogging but I did want to post today and check into our blog. I've really missed all my Twitter/blog/online friends.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

A blogging break

The last few days have been extremely stressful for me. I'm dealing with a lot of serious stuff happening in my life. My FIL is starting to really decline and that situation is not looking very good. Master Anakin has taken the day off work today. We are planning to visit him. The visits take a lot out of me though. I'm never sure if it's the last time I'm ever going to see him. My heart is breaking. I have always considered my FIL to be a member of my immediate family and like a Dad. It's very hard situation to be dealing with.

We are also dealing with some family issues going on right now. I want to make it clear that my marriage and relationship are solid though. It's been a really rough time for Anakin too but we are holding strong together to get through this rough patch. 

I've been really depressed the last few days. I haven't felt like being online very much. I'm sorry if I haven't responded to your tweet/DM/e-mail or messages. I may be out of touch while I'm dealing with things.  I'm trying to hold it together right now and that hasn't been easy for me. I am just hoping that things will get easier at some point.

I've decided to take a break from blogging until things get a bit better. The journey to the darkside will continue...

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala